A friend and I were talking about financial planning, insurance, investments, unit trusts, bonds and such, and I realised I'm almost clueless.
The little I know is from voices in the background when the banker brother has a conversation. So just now, I asked my mother to explain these to me, which she patiently did, but guess what?
I'm still clueless.
And I'm 23. That's a tad bit too old an age to still be a baby about things.
So, I start to panic.
I mean, there I was going on to Shank (friend with whom I was having conversation with) about how scary it is to live paycheck-to-paycheck, and here I am not exactly being equipped to be any different. I mean, sure I'm studying and all now, and school's supposed to be my top priority. (which currently it isn't. It falls nicely in between buying shoes and cheesecake at present)
And since I'm being a lazy caterpillar about school, I'm thinking maybe I should rethink my options and really really know what I want. I mean, I was just telling Shank (and he's a dear for patiently listening and adding his money's worth...) that I'm not sure if marketing is my thing, and that I don't feel motivated and challenged anymore.
And although, I should be the one getting into a frenzy, I wasn't. He, on the other hand, was telling me about how I have to really really think this time, and really cover all possibilities and really really know what I want before I take a decision. And considering he's known me for a really long time, I understand his worry. I am the most undecisive person, I know. The last time I worried someone like this was when I suddenly told Kaart, out of the blue, that I wanted to retake my A's and ditch the diploma.
But I didn't. So there.
However, I don't know what I'm gonna achieve with 2 diplomas and a degree to my name in a field I suddenly have very little interest in.
Is this my quarter-life crisis? if so, can it please be over in 15 minutes?
Sheesh, gotta grow up la, and it's a bloody chore. Back to the cheesecake now.
Thursday, October 4, 2007
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2 comments:
not being a baby about things:
what if completing the course, using it as a stepping stone to get to the next stage (perhaps a degree in some other field that catches your interest more), putting money -already- spent to good use and also -in the process- arming yourself with another qualification, and thus being a responsible person/"adult" would help you along your way in not being a baby about things?
although i think the first step to wisdom is the realization that there's a problem. then knowing what you want to do about it and then, going out there and doing it. you seem to be coming on fine.
eh. leave cheesecake all alone. stick to ikan bilis soupp!
I don't know why you're 'anonymous' when I know exactly who you are, goldilocks. But since you insist on being a friend to me only on my blog, and an aquaintance everywhere else, I'll keep mum.
About what you said, I do agree. And that's generally the plan. I'd be so much happier though if I really knew what I wanted to do, and how to go about getting to that place. It'd be something to look forward to. Something to get me past the dreary days of business-ing.
That said, this year has seen me learning many many new things, and while sometimes I do think I'm growing up to be smarter, there still are times when I falter and fear grips me hard. I guess when I wrote that post, it was one of those for me.
But thank you!! As always, you make complete sense.
Be good now.Be careful of the three bears.
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